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After taking a step back,i think it does good to all of us…Although i cannot be with my family physically around to take care of them, at least i felt that i am able to provide to my parents with a roof over them.With my mum, i guess we are jus not fated to live together. Friday, i brought my mum & wanni to movie 12 lotus at tamp,personally i felt that it is not really nice show as the storyline was silly & a lot of dialect conversation which wanni cannot understand, the movie has lots of singing,not bad but jus too much i think..

Maybe people not around would be more cherished,that i felt more care from my mum…no matter what,i hope she can be happy & healthy…For me,life is peaceful, although i still have the sudden pain in my chest n ribcage, i decided to go for a checkup recommend by my colleague to the Heart Centre.Hopefully my heart cum health is fine,cos i still have a long way ahead of me, for my families.

In a week time,i’m going to move house with Wanni again. It was an unhappy shift,that i had not expected to, but for the sake of pursuing our happiness,& i have no choice.Being taken for granted & constantly despised by own mother was tormenting.Pls do not tell me that i’m a mother & i should stand in my mum’s shoes to understand her.It is only that i’m a mother myself that i am confused that i would have never treated my daughter in the way like her had done..

Frankly speaking,i have fought with my own thoughts many times before i made this decision.

I cheated myself that a mother should be forgiving to her gal & not digging up e hurtful past to hurt her time & again…She had always prove me wrong by minding my faults & keep mentioning my past & no matter what i do, i was still the "Rotten" one…ouchs,pls believe me,its bleed & hurts …

Whoever suffers such fate pls tell me that i’m not alone…

Hooray 2007 is here. But today i’m older by another yr.. Nevertheless,i hope to embrace 2007 with more hopes and happiness.. Thanks to all my frienz who always rem new yr day is my bday and been receiving greetings so much so much..I luv u all so much..2007 bday celebration as usual with my beluv sis hui and hope we can always celebrate together and 4ever.. on 29th dec,we pre-celebrated @ club 97 with david,his bday as well..We enjoyed the atmosphere so much and of course david’s singing.. My sisters gave me a lot of gifts i had wished for,tink they kno me best,heehee.. sisters 4ever…we’ll been tog for more than 10 yrs since sec 1…

Tis yr got a lot of wishes,lst on the list is Charmaine be clever n healthy n guai guai..,then i dont have to spend so much $ on her medical,pls god plsss help me..Wen to be healthy and stay in spore with us..Hui to earn more $, mei to marry fast fast,n jing to be blissful for her marriage life…,my parents and 3 sisters to be healthy and happy in their life.. last but not least smt good for myself..heehee

What happens when 2 capricorns meet? Would it be like both just don’t dare to tolk to each other,hmmm i realli dont know.. But for me i guess it’s all up to fate.. I jus got to knoe tat he’s a capri n his age as well,but i guess he’s attached alreadi,cos given his age and of course his eligibilty,it would be strange then…No matter wat i’m jus happy to see him,and not wanting anything more.. how should i say it??  cos when liking someone(which so long no 1 evers touches my heart since i got divorced- the chemistry), it somehow makes me sad again,the fears,the sadness,the paranoid,the kinda undescribably emotion tat comes out when i tried to open up my heart again…Maybe things r jus fine now… jus wanna retain the sweet feel n forever n ever forget the unhappiness…JAN would be a busy month my bday,my sisters bday and sis ROM  so much so much Soon school will be starting again, gotta buck up towards my goals again…

Anyway to celebrate the last of tis yr,i’m having a pre-bday celebration with sisters @ dragonfly , pre-christmas @ partyworld KTV and of course a celebration with the capri like david(29 dec), me (on the lst jan) n  sis sherrie on the (2nd Jan), and MR CAPRI (in my heart)  @ B-one.. Hope the celebrations would all be veri happy…

Aiyah,today i can’t wake up again,seems like i’m immune to my alarm clock and my phone alarm,Hey,anybody got a good idea??? usually can wake up biologically at 7am but now it shifted to 8am… Pls dont tell me to sleep early cos i got serioussss insomia. If i still late tomolo,should kana cut by boss into thousands pieces… Maybe should get a giant alarm clock that can woke me up like an earthquake or maybe i should try counting the baa baa black sheep early to hallucinate myself to bed…heehee….:p

Nitezzz gals n guys,may all have sweet dreams…

Thanks to all friends that have been supportive of me,no matter in their care and concern and also the actions that they done to tell me that they r here to stay,their promises that they are along the way to give me support…  to tell me that promises are always meant to be kept…. They are just like stars in the dark skies that give me a glimmer of hope and shine…

I always thought that if i be nice to my friends,they would be also nice to me.Yes but efforts always paid off and this earns me a lots of true hearted friends. Their care and concern really touched me. Thanks you my true friends…

But sad to say,today is the first x in my life that i’m going to decide to stop having this friend,the seriousness that i don’t intend to reveal this person’s identity. Let’s refer this person as XX. XX is a caring friend who helps friends and gives advice to people whenever people need XX at the start.That y i thought XX is a good friend,that y if i got e time i would try to meet XX,and chat. XX was good and kind in the beginning. But lately i start to realise that XX is bad-tempered person and hurt his friends thru XX words. XX is self-centred now,only XX can talk about XX troubles,if i try to console,XX is not appreciative and said i dont understand.When i talk about my problems like before,XX is no longer sensitive like B4,XX thought my problems was stupid and not important,XX used words to hurt me. When one day i can no longer tolerate, and try to tell XX  the attitude problem nicely,XX shift the blame to me that it is me who misunderstand XX.The worst thing is that XX would talk bad things about my other friends, even XX dont know them ,saying they r not true friends,judging from wat XX feels only…

(things that happened to us)

Scenario 1

Me : Haiz i feel sad…..u know i…U understand???

XX : It’s none of my business,why should i understand???

Me : ???? (Dumbfounded)

Scenario 2

XX : Shouldn’t have taken this road,got such traffic jam….

Me : It’s ok,we’ll not in a hurry,can enjoy and appreciative the festival deco on the way….

XX : I don’t know how to appreciate arts…(Looking frustrated)

Me : ???? (thinking : u thought i know how to appreciate arts meh??,jus say to make u feel better)

Scenario 3

XX: My work got a lot of stress…. U know… If i dont…, than it will be very stress to others..

Me : Dont worry,i think u r experienced to be able to handle that. Anyway jus try ur best…

XX: WAT?? u think experienced can meh, u r wrong….U dont know the stress lah…

Me : ok lah, jus wan to tell u that jus relax and try ur best,too stressed not too gd…

XX : AIYAH u dont understand lah…!!!

Me : i….( Being interrupted by XX)

XX : U STOP talking,CAN U !!! u dont understand lah..

Me : ( ?????)

Conclusion :

XX is actually a self-centred and selfish person who hurt friends thru words. i have try to persuade XX many times for this attitude problem only to be blamed instead hence i feel that XX is not worth to be my friend. Friends who know me should know that i’m a very easygoing person who doesn"t ask much from friends,only to be there for each other when who needs me and help in watever i can. But i really cannot be friend with a person who don’t respect his friends or treat his friends like a piece of shit… (FRiends not born to be insulted by u)

AND THE WORST XX NEVER ADMIT XX FAULTS!!!!!

Farewell XX,u should know who u r>>>